Thursday, January 10, 2013
My site’s been down for the last few days and it drove me crazy being unable to update. I know a handful of you messaged me wondering why the site was down and truth be told, I have no clue. I’ve had my site go down more in the little time I’ve had it than in the entire time I owned my original domain, faccia-bella.net. I appreciate my host, Jenn but the hosting company she uses leaves something to be desired.
As for my real life… Eh. Hubby came home but was only here for about a week. I hated when he had to return to San Diego. I’m still not feeling like my old self and I am more under the weather than usual. I always hate saying goodbye to him after I visit him in San Diego but it was worse having him leaving me. I think it’s always hardest being the one left behind than the one leaving. Isn’t that odd? I try not to let feeling down and missing him interfere with my daily life, but it’s difficult.
And I’m still dealing with the fall-out from my now ex-best friend. Sure, five months have passed since we stopped speaking but it’s still hard for me to let go of not just my anger but also my love for her. She and I were besties for a long time, close to ten years and while I can’t speak for her, it isn’t so easy for me to immediately stop caring about her, not matter how much I want to. And when someone so close betrays you so deeply, I think it’s that much harder to let go. It’s all sort of surreal and sometimes I can’t believe she’s no longer in my life.
Thankfully, I have plenty of other friends to lean on and to turn to when I need a chat but it isn’t the same as having that one really close friend that’s there all the time.
And isn’t this blog full of flowers and sunshine? Hehe.
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